i dunt knoe why..but these past dew days have really been a rocking roller coaster for me.im trying so hard to find myself..i wanna know who i really am!who i really like or love for that matter..sometimes i dunt knoe but i feel like im doing so many things not bcos i want to do them but bcos pple are expecting me to them!im really not sure whats going on with me.i refused to go anywhere today!i stayed home and i really wanted to have time to myself hardly even came online!!im just hoping elishea comes down later cos its at times like these when i desperately need her!things seem so simple..BUT they arent and thats what i hate!i dunt knoe been feeling down lately.i JUST wanna freaking hell be my own person!its come to a point of time where im so confused as to who i like..and who likes me!People just confuse me..one min its this and the next its something else!..its so bloogy annoying..I KNOW who i love..but im not sure how long im gonna be handle this on my own..keeping stuff to myself hurts sometimes..but telling it would even be worse!i do NOT know what to do!i do NOT know who to trust..am i like cursed or something..its so bloody hard just understanding myself..let alone anyone else!i bet im the only one..and now i know it means when they say its confusing always when your single!i used to think they were so wrong..but NOW i know..hell yea they were so RIGHT!its not like i plan to get attached..ive had enough of guys complicating my life!THEY ALWAYS Do..no idea what satisfaction they get..dunt woryr im not turning les either..im planning to just STAY HAPPY for now!or try to atleast to..haha!!IM STRESSED OUT!I lOVE YOU!
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