IM pouring my heart out on this one!
actually i was coping quite well with all those side track kinda stuff!and like I was coping well with stress i must both from school and others from the the real world who do not believe in feelings..or sometimes are just inconsiderate people who know no harm they are actaully causing..ive been so confused since last night!i do not knoe who i really want now nor do i know what i want!IM SO LOST..like i said at the start i described the yar to be a "sweet-collercoaster" yet i havent quite felt the sweet part..ite been a major rollercoaster plus PIANO just means die..and i couldnt take it..!i just broke down!i thought ill feel better but NO..if i could id quit piano anytime!but i cant..which is so BAD!like school and other stuff arent stressful enough!gosh my mind is flowing with really insignificant thoughts!sometimes i just wish my soul could escape from my body for a while!I NEED A BREAK!im so sick of waking up knowing that guys tend to not go direct!I cant stand that..neither can i stand the fact that some teachers lessons are like close to a lullaby being sung and i cannot stand people pushing thier problems onto me..i dunt mind helping out but dunt let it get out of control.. i got my own life to deal with!SIGH STRESSED LOUSY BAD DEPRESSED..somebody do some magic!
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