first things first im not supposed to be here!im freaking supposed to be at cheer prac or drama..both have really been taking up a lot of my time!i wanted to quiet cheer but thne i realised it will be so unfair to hoiyan and the rest of the sec 4s cos everyone seems to be wanting to quit but we're all hanging in there together..cos afterall we are in this together!drama night is like friday [intersect] saturday!haha the intersect comes in due to SETS!i learnt today that intersect means "and" and union means "or"!!that's way besides the point!
last night i came home with this really bad aching shit painful right shoulder!(which btw is still pretty bad) and i was having a freaking headache so i thought fine ill sleep first and then wake up at 3 plus to mug..but guess what i slept right thru till 4.45 and i even had a freaky dream!i was so scared it was so dark!i was ALONE..and i hid under my blanket and i felt like something so wrong could have happened..whatever it is i completely feeling that way!everntually i woke uup and looked at BIO..then i was too scared to be in my room alone..so i went down and sat in the kitchen atleast i had my maid..
so then school was utterly weird..AND i hate weird days in school..
then it begin to rain and i needed to come home so badly to mug so i did..i came home and i had lunch with my mum and then i remembered what meryl said bout doing amath/emath so i did just that!and i felt so good..anyways then THE PHONE RANG and my mum just had to come into my room to dammit answer it and not only that she remains on my bed and starts talking really loudly!then my sister walks in and lies beside her on MY bed and starts playing with some stupid zip..so i get really annoyed cos here i am trying to study and there they are being so inconsiderate so i went downstairs to my brother's room..i lay on his bed and i just broke down..i guess it was really a build up of every damn thing!im one person who cannot cope with stress!firstlty i dunt know how to and secondly im not that kinda of person.ive been hiding away from everything but i guess i have to face it i am a lil stressed out..esp with mids and the fact that every damn teacher is preparing us for really bad results upon looking at the papers and elee can even go to the extend to say yes this is to ensure that all bio girls get distinction for Os..like hello!ergh..anyway that breakdown was so overdue its just that i kept running away from it.everything's so baldy planned cheer finals are on sturday too..dance night was last week and dramanight is friday and saturday and MID YRS BEGIN ON TUESDAY..SOMEBODY EXPLAIN TO ME THE LOGIC IN THIS PLANNING CONSIDERIN THE FACT THAT WE'RE SEC 4s!!
well had a really meaningful talk with jamie grace and mel.s.w!i realised how im the kinda person who doesnt like to face problems..i just noticed that i keep forgetting everything that happens i just keep putting everything behind me and i keep moving on..i realised i never solve my problems i just forget them.like social stuff and everything i just move on and dunt care about those kinda stuff..im not sure if this is good?but yea..it's like i just dunt care!i mean no point solcing such problems right everyone's gonna say different things..it'll just make things worse..sigh..some people have just got to learn to grow up!
"People never know how special someone really is to them until that someone leaves, but maybe sometimes its important for that someone to leave for a bit, so your given that chance to see how special that someone really is!" -there's a thousand things that i could say to make you come home!lol..
as our lives change from whatever we will still be friends forever
cos that's what friends are for!
a sister in disguise